We had a bad day...

I will spare you most of the details, but it was a super bad day. Jude had a rough night so of course mommy did, and Sophia didn't seem have enough sleep either. We tried to have a pleasant lunch with my friend Cora today and well that went awry. Got home and it just seemed to get worse.

The worst part was when Sophia called me an idiot. We had had timeout after timeout after timeout in the past hour or so, and this time I was just trying to get her to hurry up and put away her blocks because she needed to eat her dinner. The top of the block container has the shapes of the blocks cut out of it, and though I love the shape recognition part, it was not time for that and she was just kind of messing around anyhow, so I took the top off and walked off....this prompted "give me that top back you idiot" kind of like that kid on Christmas Story when he says the F word. This lost her the rest of her fun bedtime stuff and of course another time out.

At this point, I realized this is my fault, I said to her the other day "you're not an idiot Sophia, stop acting like one"....*sigh* yep, no mother of the year for me for sure. And doing our 123 magic has been so hard, too much emotion and talking on our part....REALLY need to work on this, because the method works, as long as your consistent.

So tonight after prayers, we talked about tomorrow being a better day, and I asked her how we could do that and she said "yeah, don't say stupid, or idiot, or shit"..."but daddy and mommy can say them".

Ok, so obviously we need to work on some stuff here, obviously I am not making good decisions when it comes to how I speak to and around my child. Counting to 10 is great, when you remember to do that, walking away is great, also, when you remember to do that before the situation comes to a head....Gonna have to do some serious thinking on this.

Please don't judge, I know that I am not perfect, but I'm trying, and this is hard ok?

Oh and I really really really really miss Starbucks right now :(